June 4th, 2008
Well there is always afirst time for everything -or so they say.............. I 'm glad it's over though: I think I will for ever enjoy further "joint" or "Collective" exhibitions after that experience. Why I wonder was it so unnerving and traumatic? The sensation of baring all................. as if approval is the only way to succeed! It is annoying for only one reason. I paint and feel so very complete, happy and joyful, utterly fulfilled - almost to the point of needing nothing else: it is almost frightening. So why should suddenly that joy disintegrate into a feeling of total inadequacy and fragility? It really does take courage - at least for me - to "show" my work - it is simply so very intimate.
Today - having sold a print - I am elated. I am so curious as to find out who - in Liverpool - where I was born - has ordered it. I am pretty sure it's most likely family - brother, cousin, Dad's cousin........... how does one find out????
March 18th, 2008
WHERE TO GET MORE TIME FROM, TO FIND MORE TIME TO PAINT......? ALL I WANT TO DO IS PAINT!
Have been attending my first Art Class - since school! - a total of 4 classes (2 hours a week since Feb 15)) have given me my first bash at oils! And of course I had to go for the palette knife immediately! Love it, but boy does it take time to dry. I can see I am going to have to buy a few more easles in order to work on a few at a time which of course I knew was common practise amongst "artists" who were serious about art! Still coming to terms with it though, still feels awkward somehow. But now and again I manage to get a great effect, with just a stroke or strike (what is it with the p knife?) ......... anyhow we'll see.
Supposedly my first solo exhibition is set for mid April. Feels rather strange too. Suppose because I live on such a small island where everyone knows everyone.
Still - I will have acheived something important for myself!